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22 March 2011 @ 12:40 am


WARNING: this journal contains SLASH - this means homosexual male/male relationships - strong course language, violence, explicit sexual content and some very disturbing themes. And daily ranty crap. You have been warned.


my heart rushes beyond the golden field, toward the sleeping place beneath the stone where I must lie.. )





 
 
visualcomplex
25 April 2010 @ 05:32 am
5:47am on Anzac day. Write some pr0n DUH! (idea stolen from a wayward journal entry off the nabari no ou comm)

I WANT YOUR PR0N!!@#!!!

RULES:
1. The fandom is BLEACH
2. Choose your pairing/character(s)
3. MUST be one sentence long
4. MUST be pr0n or at least suggest/imply sex/sexual acts in some way
5. Reply to this entry with your ONE SENTENCE FIC (i.e. write it in a comment NO LINKS)
6. Yes you can write more than once.
7. PLEASE ENTER A SUBJECT TITLE!

Oh & P.S. this shit is R rated

EDIT** this is the only time I will ever say that I enjoy having my inbox spammed by porn!


COMPANION LIST + MOST MEMORABLE - for this meme


AND MORE STUFF )




 
 
feeling: amused
 
 
visualcomplex
10 November 2009 @ 10:32 pm


My mother put a white 200 dollar shirt I bought from Tokyo in the wash with something red. Guess what happened next?

Oh God why!!

 
 
feeling: numb
 
 
visualcomplex
07 November 2009 @ 11:50 pm



I am heavy hearted to reminisce about Japan. I miss it every day, and it's hardly been a week since we left. I've come home to so much uni work, at this point I don't even know how I'm going to finish it all. A lot as happened...and honestly, I'm over it. If I pass this year I'll be so surprised.

Here are all the location shots I photographed. From Kyoto, Nagano, Tokyo and finally Osaka.

places and places and places )


 
 
feeling: yearning
listening to: daishi dance - beautiful earth
 
 
visualcomplex
04 November 2009 @ 03:02 pm
Author: visualcomplex
Title: His heart is a desert
Rating: M, I think
Pairing: Ryuuken/Uryuu
Warnings: masturbation. incest
Summary: -

A/N:
I wrote part of this one on the train from Tokyo to Osaka on two torn out pieces of paper stuffed in my wallet. It is dedicated to my f-list. But mostly to [info]darktower6 (I know it's not your fav pairing but deal with it :P) who traveled with me and put up with me throughout my wonderful Japanese adventure.

read more... )

 
 
feeling: bleh something
listening to: Nest - summer storm
 
 
visualcomplex
03 November 2009 @ 04:41 pm
TADAIMA.

I won't make my big post right now. I'm currently editing all the photos I took on my big trip. There's over 300 of them, and I plan to upload every single one. Bear with me.

I'm sore. The night before our flight home was HALLOWEEN and we went out. As part of my costume, I stupidly decided to wrap my entire torso in bloody bandages and get crunk. Now I'm sore as fuck and I can't even laugh without feeling pain. What a cruel punishment. I never realized what a comedian I was until it started to hurt to laugh. lol

I'll leave finer details for later. But let me just say a few overall things...

We checked out of our hotel by noon. It was the most miserable day of my life. I was hung over, in pain and in the darkest shittiest mood I've ever been in. I DID NOT WANT TO LEAVE.I loved Kyoto, but my heart belongs to SHINSAIBASHI OSAKA JAPAN. Those last few days in Osaka, were some of the best days of my life. We made SO many new friends. By the end of our trip, we were regulars at a bar called ROOM 19 and we knew everybody there. They are the sweetest, funniest most incredible people. My trip was that much richer and mor unforgettable because of them, and I was heartbroken to say goodbye.
It rained on Sunday morning, it was the perfect backdrop. We were all so tired when we got to the airport. We kept finding reasons to linger around. Meanwhile, I just wanted to drop my suitcase and run, I would've lived on the street if it meant I could stay. It wasn't just about how much fun I had in Shinsaibashi. It was what the place had done to me. It made me feel like I belonged there.

I love Sydney because it is my home, but my heart is somewhere else. And yearning for a place is different to missing a person. It's a bigger unsatisfaction, many bigger holes. When we went, I left a large chunk of me in Shinsaibashi.

We boarded late. I hardly slept at all on the plane. But I cried. I

My old boss got in contact with me today, and he's offered me a job at the photography studio I'd been working at earlier this year. It's fate.
You know, I'll be keeping my eye out for cheap flights. As soon as I've got a ticket, I'M OUT OF HERE. lol I don't even care.

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I've got so much to catch up on and my f-list is all over the place right now. If you're all reading this, drop me a comment and tell me what you've been up to? I'll reply. :)

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feeling: exhausted
listening to: beyonce - irreplaceable
 
 
visualcomplex
20 October 2009 @ 12:16 am



Me petting ghost cat at Fushimi Inari, where they filmed some parts of Memoirs of a Geisha. :D Luckily Cassi (nee-san's friend) uploaded this to facebook else I wouldn't have any pictures to show you yet because I didn't bring my usb cable for my digi cam.

Posted to you from Nee-san's laptop in a classy hotel in Matsumoto Japan.

P.s. I think my Japanese is a little more improved by now
p.p.s And I am so OCD as to be keeping tabs on [info]bleach_news on my own vacation just because someone else said they couldn't post today's edition.

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feeling: so good
listening to: nest - the elk king's daughter
 
 
visualcomplex


This is my last night in Kyoto. Tomorrow we'll be making a 4-6 hour train ride to Nagano. And I cant bear to leave this place yet.
We've been temple/shrine jumping for days. The atmosphere and environment is beautiful and I am so inspired and feel so privileged to be here.

Some people cry because they're depressed but I will only cry when I'm overwhelmed by something that is beautiful. Kyoto does this to me. Kyoto makes everything seem like nothing at all.
 
I'm supposed to be on vacation, but I can't stop thinking about fanfiction. On my 10 hour flight I wrote my first draft for the Shinji/Aizen tbtp fic that everybody voted for. And then coming HERE, and seeing the shogan mansions for the first time and learning about the way the buildings were built and the food is served and the clothes are worn...makes me feel so....enlightened I guess. I finally feel like I'm writing about places and things that I have actual knowledge about. I'm going to come home with so much material :)

Anyway, I should really wait till I get back to fill you in on any details but I just couldn't hold it in. Plus I was like...exploding to read the next chapter of BLEACH.

Till next time guys...

p.s. I miss you all very much.

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feeling: calm and content
 
 
visualcomplex
30 minutes. My dad is driving me to pick up Lyndall, and then to Briony's house in West Ryde. We're leaving for the airport at probably 2am-ish by taxi. But before all that, I just want to say to say happy birthday in advance to these people:

[info]julia_ceres
[info]betnhe
[info]regasssa
[info]rhombusadelleda

I'm sorry I won't be here for it. Especially yours Jak <3

And I'm sorry I've been less responsive than usual online lately. ESPECIALLY to you [info]saiko_yasha -- I did get your email. I got all your messages actually, it's just been hectic. But your shoes have been posted and I'm really excited about seeing you next year too :)

It's less than 6 hours before we depart and I've managed to worry myself into a mini flu. My eyes, head and the back of my neck ache like hell and I keep breaking out into cold sweats. I just need everything to be okay right now. There are too many things happening at once. I can't afford for things not to be okay at this point.
And I recently got a new phone, so I've been getting all these calls at every moment of the day and it's driving me crazy.
My step mother is also due to give birth around the time I get back. I don't even know how I feel about this anymore.
I haven't finished writing my studio theory essay, or my art and poetry essay. And...my tea is too sweet.


Seeya in 3.

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feeling: i dont know
listening to: chopin always makes it better
 
 
visualcomplex
09 October 2009 @ 06:24 pm


Like I said I would...

It's weird, when my hair was short it was all I could do to get it to grow out again. And as soon as that happened I was demanding it to be cut off. Anyway, Lyndall did a bit of a shave on my neck line as well, so it's pretty damn cropped now except for the front.

I remind myself of Ciel just a little bit. It's the hair I think. Perhaps I finally need to give into cosplay...............maybe.



I don't really even watch the anime. But I should.

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So I went to Sarah's house last night to install her dreads. And in return, she gave me this AWESOMEFLAILWORTHYROCKMYWORLD badge as a gift:



OMG IT'S WURST! THANK YOU SARAH. *WILL WEAR IT EVERYDAY*
AND just read ch 377 BLEACH please to be expecting a mad post about that too
And just general spam! I need to spam this mofo to the ground before I leave. Sorry! I do it because I lub you!


 
 
feeling: happy